Thoughts from the First Trimester

Thank you all so much for all of the congratulations on here, Instagram, and Facebook! They were all so sweet and mean so much to me. I started a post the day we found out we were pregnant to keep track of everything that happened in the first trimester, so here it is!

Saturday, March 7, 2015

So... I'M PREGNANT! I can't even believe it. I found out officially this morning when I took a test that came back positive, but I've known for a couple days. I just had a really strong feeling that I was, I don't know how to explain it!

Last night, three days passed my missed period, I was hanging out with Joe and my sister Emma and I wanted to take a test the next morning. I kept trying to get away by myself to buy a test, saying I was going to get some food, but they both kept offering to come with me! I finally agreed to let Emma come and told Joe to stay home and play his video games. Then I could at least surprise him. I told her why I needed to get away and she freaked out. I promised her I'd tell her the results as soon as I knew. Then this morning, Joe and I woke up and I pretty much pushed him out of the house so I could take the test. I asked if he'd go get us bagels, and that I had a headache so I would stay behind. As soon as he left, I took the test. And like I had guessed, two lines: pregnant! My heart started pounding. I tied a yellow ribbon around the test and had it ready for when he got back. He came in with the food and started telling me about how we should go get the matching tattoos we'd been talking about getting. I just told him I couldn't. When he asked why I pulled out the test and showed him. His reaction was so sweet. He just smiled and said, "really?!" Then we hugged and kissed and smiled and kept saying how we couldn't even believe it.

This was pretty unexpected for us, but we are just so happy. We always talked about wanting to wait a couple years, but now that it's upon us, it feels perfect. I've already gone out to buy the vitamins and the book, I'm ready!

I'll be spending the week in Hawaii with my dad and sister, but as soon as I get back I'm going to make a doctor appointment to confirm everything. I'm just going to try to relax this week since it'll probably be my last chance to in a while. So as of right now, just Emma, Joe and I know about this, and I made them swear to keep it that way until at least our first appointment. I'm so excited to start reading this book on the plane and learning. I want to know everything. And I'll keep coming back to this post to add updates before it's made public. I think it'll really set in once I'm back from vacation and we start getting down to baby business. We're nervous, but so very excited!

Saturday, March 14, 2015

I arrived back home this morning after a week in Hawaii, and I am exhausted! I knew pregnancy makes a woman tired but I didn't expect it so early on! I'm so glad to be home and able to relax in my own cozy bed. As of today, I'm officially five weeks along, which means the baby is the size of an apple seed, teeny tiny. The only symptoms I've noticed so far are the fatigue (which might have to do with traveling) and a little bit of nausea. Every time I'd be in the car more than ten minutes, or go a couple hours without eating, I'd start to feel sick. Apparently though, nausea is completely normal and common during the first few months, so I'm just going to try to breathe slowly and ignore it. 

I plan on calling the obstetrician on Monday to make an appointment for our first visit. I think after we actually have a doctor confirm it it will feel a lot more real!

Friday, March 27, 2015

Man where do I even begin. This past week has been HARD. Last Sunday after dinner my stomach started to feel pretty bad, and about an hour later I threw up. I figured it was probably one of those things that was just going to happen once in a while during pregnancy. Until the next morning I threw up again without even eating anything. Then after that, even a small sip of water would lead to vomiting. This lasted until our first doctor appointment on Wednesday. I even had to wait outside the office because I felt like I couldn't breath. I wanted to be so excited for this, but was just miserable. When the doctor finally saw us, she was too concerned about my weight loss and dehydration to do anything normal at a first appointment. She said she wanted to focus on keeping me out of the hospital (so did I!) so she gave me a couple medications to try to ease the nausea. I really didn't want to take any medication during pregnancy, especially so early on, but if it's the only way to keep myself and baby fed then it had to happen. The next morning, I started to feel a bit more normal. I was even able to keep down a glass of water and some apple sauce! So now I'm just focusing on rehydrating and nourishing myself and the baby, which hasn't been super easy, but definitely better than before! We scheduled our first real appointment for the second of April and I'm so excited we'll finally be getting down to business!

In other, happier news, Joe and I told our immediate family over the week. I first told my older sister, who also had trouble with morning sickness. I decided to call and ask for her advice since I had no idea what was normal or not. Then we told my mom, dad, my other sisters, Joe's siblings, parents and a couple of really close friends. It's so crazy that so many people know now! My sister even brought over an adorable little stuffed bunny, which is our first baby item so far! 

Even though this week has been so strenuous, it really helps having people around willing to help and that really care. I'm still pretty queasy all the time, but at least I can actually keep food down. I hope it stays that way! I really can't wait for our actual doctors appointment on Thursday, and I'll be back after that for an update! 

Friday, April 3, 2015

Yesterday was our first ultrasound/ exam and it went very well. We first were called back for the ultrasound and it was so cool. She just ran the wand across my belly until she found the little dot that is our baby. She told us we were spot on about how far along we were (7w 5d) and the baby is 1.2 cm long. We also heard a heart beat, which was so crazy, of 156 BPM. My sister says that means it's a girl since it's fast, we'll see! It was the coolest thing in the world being able to see for ourselves that there is in fact a little baby in there! After the ultrasound was an exam, which wasn't quite as fun but not bad. She checked out everything and asked so many questions and answered so many questions. Super informative! Everything so far is great and we left with nothing but good news. We're so relieved about that! Now that the heartbeat has been confirmed we're going to tell the rest of our family on Easter. It's so crazy how many people already know and it's starting to feel so legit! We have another appointment set for the end of the month and then I guess once a month after that. 

I've still be feeling pretty nauseous and occasionally vomiting, but I'm still functional and able to eat, which is good. I really hope I don't get as sick as I was a couple weeks ago. I also noticed my boobs are starting to be pretty sore and I can smell everything, which I hate. I'm also very tired a lot, but am thankful to have the luxury of going to bed early and sleeping in if needed. Other than that stuff, okay and some acne, I'm feeling pretty good. My older sisters have answers to all of my questions and so much advice, I'm so lucky to have two sisters that are mommies. 

Monday, April 20, 2015

Not much has happened since I posted last, just a whole lot of being sick and tired. Morning sickness has continued to kick my butt and I am hoping so much that it goes away in a few weeks. I lost six pounds from the week of throwing up I still haven't put that weight back on, but my doctor assured us that it's okay and I will get my appetite back soon. Who knew I would ever be upset about not gaining weight! I've also been sleeping 10-12 hours every day. I have never been this exhausted in my life. By about 8:30 or 9 at night I lose ability to keep my eyes open and just pass out for the night. Again, hoping that improves in a couple weeks. I'm in my eleventh week and starting to see the light at the end of this first trimester tunnel. Still no sign of a bump yet, just extra bloat, but I'm so excited to have a bump I can show off. 

My birthday was last week and Joe took me to stay in a hotel over night in Phoenix, which was so nice. I still felt pretty sick the whole time, but it was still nice to soak in a pool and enjoy the sun. While we were there we also made our very first baby purchase: a teeny tiny pair of checkered vans. We saw them and absolutely had to get them, they are so cute and we can't wait to see our little guy or girl in them. We also have a small collection of baby things from our family: a bunny from my sister, Star Wars toys from my mom (of course!) and a teddy bear from Joe's parents. It's so crazy having a little pile of baby things in the house! Our next appointment is in one week and I really can't wait to hear the heart beat again. I feel like I need a lot of reassurance that everything is going well since I always feel sick and can't eat much right now. So I'll be back then with another update :)

Monday, April 27, 2015

I'm now 11 weeks along, and today we had our second doctor appointment to hear the baby's heart beat. I'm always so nervous for things like that, afraid that they'll discover something wrong. But thankfully that wasn't the case. She found the heart beat right away and said it sounded great. That was so nice to hear! The doctor also told me that I still haven't put on any weight since being sick that week, probably because I still have no appetite and still feel pretty sick every day, so I really need to focus on putting on a little bit of weight. I never knew morning sickness could be this bad. It hasn't gotten as bad as week six, but I haven't gone one day yet without feeling nauseous and having to gag down food. Apparently for most women this starts to subside once in the second trimester, which I really hope happens for me, I'm so close! 

We've got another appointment set for four weeks from now, just another quick one like today I believe, then I'm pretty sure the one after that will be the ultrasound that will tell us the sex. Which we are crazy excited for. Joe and I both think we know what it might be, so it'll be so interesting to find out if we're right!